God’s cake

Sometimes we wonder, ‘What did I do to deserve this?’ or ‘Why did God have to do this to me?’ Here is a wonderful explanation! A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is going wrong, she’s failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away.
Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, ‘Absolutely Mom, I love your cake.’
‘Here, have some cooking oil,’ her Mother offers.
‘Yuck’ says her daughter.
‘How about a couple raw eggs?’ ‘Gross, Mom!’
‘Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?’
‘Mom, those are all yucky!’
To which the mother replies: ‘Yes , all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! ‘
God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful!

God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He’ll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart.

Hello friends,

I apologize for not posting in so long. I had a rough week in more ways than one. I have two weeks left of my college career. This is adding a LOT of stress to my life at the moment. I am continuing with my 40 hour per week internship at the hospital, trying to write my final term paper, studying for my certification exam, job hunting, and trying to lose weight. This coupled with my lack of weight loss has kept me on the verge of a breakdown for the past 2 weeks or so.

As I said, I have been on the verge of a meltdown of nuclear proportions. I am the type of person that bottles things up for a long time and then I spew everything out at whoever happens to be there when I blow. I felt the pressure inside growing and growing. It seemed like everything was throwing fuel on the growing fire within. After losing weight again towards the end of last week, I began gaining again. I think it was Saturday that I weighed myself and I was down to 228! By the time Tuesday hit I was up to 230 and mega disappointed. After much thought and discussion, my mom and I decided it might be best for me to count both carbs and calories. I don’t know if I mentioned before how TIRED I am of counting calories. I have been dieting for soooo long and I felt like I was a slave to food, the nutrition label, and my food scale. I was terrified to eat anything I couldn’t weigh. Food and calories became the central thought in my life. I got to a point where I decided that was not healthy for me. I was exhausted and just couldn’t keep up with that anymore. That is one of the main reasons I decided to go on Atkins. While watching carbs I can just choose foods that don’t have any carbs in them and not have to worry if what I am eating is closer to 1/2 of a cup or 3/4. I was loving the freedom that comes with Atkins. I could eat when I was hungry! I could eat what my mom made for dinner! I could eat even if I didn’t have the nutrition facts for something! These things were awesome, but I wasn’t losing weight. =( This then, is why calorie counting has been added to my regimen. This did NOT make me a happy camper.

Then, I blew. I had a HUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEE meltdown. Boy oh boy, I must have been some sight. Here is this 21 year old screaming and sobbing like a 2 year old who has to take a nap! You know what though? I feel better. I had to just let it all out. I cried it all out and then wiped my eyes and continued on. There is no sense in feeling sorry for myself. I am alive and well. I am smart, friendly, loved, saved, and going somewhere with my life. Obesity is a burden I can handle. I know God will never give me more than I can handle. He has a purpose for this struggle. I may not be able to see it, but I can rest in the fact that He knows whats best for me. In the meantime I can continue to develop characteristics such as patience, determination, self control, and perseverance.

Well, that sure was long. If you made it to the end of this post, congrats. lol. I will check in again on Monday for my weigh in.

Blessings,

Alice