I had a follow-up appointment with my endocrinologist Monday morning, and like usual, it was a disappointing waste of my $35 co-pay. I keep gaining weight (as you all know) even though my diet hasn’t been horrible. Losing weight is a huge, let me repeat HUGE struggle. I eat right, workout, and do all the “right things,” yet my weight has been stuck at this point for a year. My symptoms have been getting worse: irregular periods, my hair falling out, hair growing in places it shouldn’t, etc. Last summer my Dr. put me on birth control to see if that would help. I ended up gaining 15 pounds in 3 months, never had my period the week I wasn’t taking the pill, bled almost constantly the other three weeks, and felt altogether miserable. Those 15 pounds I gained have yet to come off. Every time I have tried, I lose only a few pounds before hitting a plateau. I then give up and gain those pounds back. I’m stuck in the cycle of, “Are my symptoms worse because of my weight, or is my weight another symptom of the PCOS not responding to treatment.”
My doctor wants me to go on a Protein Sparing Modified Fast (PSMF) and check back in after three months. I was asking her what difference meal replacements would do at this point, since I’ve been doing well monitoring my calorie and carb intake on my own. The simple answer is, she doesn’t believe I’ve been eating low carb. She specifically said, “low carb means no toast, no potatoes, no…” at which point I said, “fruit, corn, carrots, rice, beans, etc.” I told her I know all that. I don’t eat carbs and I’m not losing weight. I told her how difficult it is for my body to go into ketosis, to the point that I become a zombie for a few days before my body decides it might try burning fat for fuel, and that if I don’t eat enough fat, my sweat smells strongly of ammonia, a sign that I’m breaking down my muscle for fuel. She basically said that sounds very unusual so she wants me to do the PSMF just to be sure I’m not cheating. (bleck).
Her aim is for me to lose 20 pounds.
I would LOVE to lose 20 pounds.
Heck, I would love to lose 5 pounds!
*frustrated stomping around because of a naturally skinny doctor who has no idea how hard losing weight actually is*
Can any of you out there in cyberspace relate? How have you responded to treatment for PCOS? What has worked for you?
Eager to hear from you.
In other news, my handy dandy scale greeted me with a smile this morning. – 2.6 pounds on day 21. This is progress! Also, I am in ketosis!!! I feel like a zombie, mind you, but I am in ketosis. I slept 11 hours on Friday night, 12 hours Saturday night, nearly passed out at work yesterday (thankfully I sat down just just in time which kept me from fully losing consciousness), and fell asleep as soon as I got home last night (around 6:30pm) sleeping through until 7:30 this morning. Hoping this exhaustion passes soon! *fingers crossed*
I think because I’m so exhausted, I’m going to do an easy workout today. I literally don’t think I have enough energy in me to jog… I felt weak and out of breath after simply walking to class this morning.
This week I…
Ran the C-2-5k program week 1 run 3, week 2 run 1
Pilates for beginner routine Friday, Saturday, and Monday
Went on a hike with friends on Sunday Afternoon
Sorry for the long post… I had a lot on my mind. I hope you’re all doing well!