Good News!

So, I planned my meals out for this week without calculating calories. After I entered it all into my fatsecret log, I was disappointed to see the calories at just over 1700. It was too late to change things since all my food was made, but I was bummed the count wasn’t lower. Well, late last night, after I entered my totals for the day, I noticed a mistake in my data entry! My calories are really only 1591! As I’m trying to stay near 1500, this is MUCH better. =) Hooray!

I am _________________.

I was listening to Revive Our Hearts by Nancy Leigh DeMoss on my way to work this morning. At the beginning of the message, Erin Davis (a guest speaker) was talking about labels. This really started me thinking about what label I most identify with myself. I wish I could say it was something really spiritual or Godly, but it was not. The first thing that popped into my head today, as has for most of my life, was the word FAT. In my head I know I am so much more than the number displayed on the scale. My own sinful bent, however,  keeps me believing people can’t/don’t see the real me because of my weight. So much of my motivation for losing weight is the esteem of others, but not in a typical way. I honestly do NOT want people to notice me losing weight. I abhor when people comment on my weight loss, ask me what I’m doing, or even say I look great. I know most people like that type of attention, but I do NOT. One of the main reasons I have always hated being overweight is because it makes me different. I could never shop at the same stores as my friends, we could never share clothes, I could never just blend into a crowd, and I felt my most distinguishing feature was my weight. Oh how I long for the day when people will say, “You know, the sweet one” or “You have to know her, shes the one with brown eyes… she is really nice and has beautiful smile.” Instead, I always imagine things much more negative, such as, “Oh, you know, the fat (heavy, chubby, bigger) one.” I just don’t want my weight to be my primary definitive feature! I want people to look favorably on me, and I have always felt my obesity distracts others from seeing who I really am.

Throughout the rest of that broadcast and the rest of my day, the Lord convicted me this is a wrong way to think. I need to listen to the true voice of my Beloved Savior. He calls me precious, heir, daughter, redeemed, forgiven, and loved. He is not distracted by my weight, and (way deep down in me somewhere) I know others to not only see me for my weight either. I am so much more than a number on the scale or size of my clothes. God chooses to use the weak and looked down upon in this world to do great things for His kingdom. Though I am  weak and nothing much to look at, I have a wonderful Savior, and I must continually glory in my Redeemer, not sulk about my body.

 

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Let the preparations begin!

Every week, either on Saturday or Sunday, I cook and portion out all my meals for the week. I am usually super busy, so if I don’t plan and prepare, I am bound to simply pick up a couple of hotdogs from the gas station each night for dinner (not ideal). The good thing about my tastes and food preferences is that I don’t get bored with eating the same food day after day. I eat the same thing every day for breakfast for a week, and I also choose my “lunch of the week” and “dinner of the week.” This is also really good since its just me. Cooking for one can be really tough, so making a normal size recipe and splitting it up into 5-7 portions works out really well for me. Anyways, here are some pictures from my meal prep marathon today. Enjoy!

 

« Breakfast »

2 Eggs and 2oz Pork Sausage

Farm fresh eggs

Calories: 337, Net Carbohydrates: 1

« Lunch »

Calories: 560, Net Carbohydrates 10

Lettuce for my taco lunch this week, in honor of Cinco de Mayo

• Grass-fed ground beef with taco seasoning
• Bibb lettuce leaves (in place of tortillas)
• Sharp cheddar cheese
• Organic sour cream
• Onions
• Guacamole

 

 

 

 

« Dinner »

Calories: 862, Net Carbohydrates: 9

Chicken breasts stuffed with ham and Swiss cheese. The “breading” is 1.5 oz of pork rinds mixed with 15g of soy flour

• Chicken Cordon Bleu
• Steamed asparagus

My very fist attempt at Hollandaise sauce!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The finished product. SO GOOD

Dinner Party Debacle

I think the single hardest thing about dieting is eating at others’ homes. Tonight, I attended the batchelorette party of one of my dearest friends. Dinner was asparagus (good), chicken pop-overs (insides? good, crescent roll outsides? not so much),  and strawberry pretzel salad (really, really not good). This was all followed by chocolate covered strawberries! So, what’s a girl to do?!? Well, in the past, I would probably have A. Not gone or B. Eaten everything on my plate. Tonight, however, was a fairly good night. I ate the asparagus and inside of the pop-over, and only took one tiny bite of the strawberry stuff to be polite. I also ate one strawberry, but made sure it was the smallest one on the plate. The sugar in that probably made my hope of getting into ketosis this week completely out of reach, but I am still OK with how I handled things.

I am currently SUPER tired so I’m gonna end things here. Hope you’re all doing well and sticking with your program!

Day’s stats.

Calories: 1942

Fat: 140

Carbohydrates: 38

Protein: 128

It’s MAY!

If you live in the north, as I do, then you can understand how happy I am spring is finally here. We had a BRUTAL winter which seemed like it would last forever! Now, I love going outside (even if it’s raining) to see the GREEN grass and happy yellow daffodils smiling up at me. This is a huge improvement over the constant white I’ve seen for the past six months.

With the start of a new month, I have started to think of new goals. My main goal for the month is honesty. I can follow diets really well, if I do say so myself. When I am really committed, I count every bite and every ounce of caloric food and beverages that pass over my lips. When I slip up, however, I try to ignore my “failure” and try desperately to avoid knowing how many carbs and calories I’ve consumed. I have been using fat secret to monitor my eating, and my goal is to enter EVERYTHING I eat; the good, bad, and the ugly. Take today, for instance. I was hungry. For so long I have abused my body by starving it to remain in my ideal calorie range. I remember countless nights chugging water or crystal light to trick my stomach into thinking it was full, too hungry to sleep. I recall evenings eating nothing but pickles because I didn’t want to tip the count into the 1300 calorie bracket. I have been so unkind to my body, in so many ways, over so many years.

« I want to be done »

I want to be kind to my body, and  listen to its needs. Today, I was hungry. Today, I ate.  Today, I entered each bite into the counter, peacefully (prayerfully)  watching the total rise to nearly 2000 calories. Today, I chose to be honest and not hide the fact it wasn’t my best day. Today, I achieved a small victory. Today was a good day.

1.9

Today I weighed in at 206.9. This is honestly the least I’ve weighed since I was a sophomore in high school! My clothes are beginning to fit differently. Yesterday, I went to put on a pair of dress pants I bought at Christmas time. Unfortunately (yet very fortunate at the same time) They were too big to wear…see? I decided to try one of my goal pants on today, just to see how they fit. When I began my journey, I couldn’t even get them over my hips. Now, I can get them up AND BUTTON THEM

Now, as you can see, they button, but if I even so much as THINK about sitting in them, I would have to do so in a room with nothing breakable for fear the button would snap from the pants, hurdle across the room, and shatter anything and everything valuable in the vicinity (ok, maybe an exaggeration…. you get the point). I bought these pants my freshman year of high school… in 2003! I’d say I’m doing pretty well, right???

Anyways, I had decided not to eat an enchilada tonight, but in the course of a series of unfortunate events, I didn’t have the chance to stop and get a bar or shake before going over my aunt and uncle’s house. I was STARVING. I ended up eating half of a low-carb enchilada. It really wasn’t as good as I was expecting. I tried to make it last by taking small bites, yet by doing that I didn’t really get to taste it very well. =( Oh well, its only food. Not a big deal. I ended up eating the second half by the end of the evening (probably about 2 hours later). We shall have to wait and see how this impacts my weight loss.

The biggest thing about today, though, is that I only have to lose 1.9 more pounds to reach my 40 pound mark! I hope to each that goal by this time next week. =)

Hope you’re all doing well and thank you so much for your subscriptions and support!

~Alice

Focus on the positive.

I am an idealist by nature. This can be a wonderful thing… most of the time. One thing I struggle with is disappointment when things aren’t my version of “ideal.” Take my weight for example… in my perfect, ideal world, my weight would continue to drop a pound every day or two. I would never weigh the same as the day before. I would be in onederland by now. These things are not occurring, so I have a choice. I can either be upset because things are going just my way, or I can focus on the little (and big) victories all around me. So, take today for example. I was tempted to be upset because I haven’t lost weight since Friday. I worked out all weekend, didn’t eat anything I wasn’t supposed to, and yet I still didn’t see a drop in weight. BUMMER. This evening, however, I put on a shirt that I’ve had for a number of years. At my heaviest, the sleeve was tight around my arm… I would even unbutton it so I could have more range of motion. Today, I focused on the victory it is that I can wrap my hand around my arm under the sleeve. =) I really am smaller than I was. My hard work really is paying off. I must look back with honest eyes and forward with hopeful realism.

Thats all I have for today. Best of luck to you all on your journey to health.

~Alice

I’ve been BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD

Hello there friends,

I have a confession to make. I have not just fallen off the wagon, so to speak. I have willingly jumped off and am currently rolling around in the dust next to the wagon. I feel like something just snapped. No matter what I do, I can’t get past the 210 mark. This is the same spot I plateaued at a few years ago. For some reason, my body just refuses to get past 210. No matter how good I am, how much I work out, it seems the scale just won’t budge. I fluctuate between 210 and 214 and have been at this point since September. I am so fed up. I was really sick this week. I didn’t eat much of anything for a few days. You would think I would lose at least a pound, right? NO. I gained 2. This just threw me over the edge and I said “screw this” and have been relishing in self-indulgence for the past few days. I feel like crap.

So, what am I going to do now? Well, I am going to get back on the wagon heading for onederland. I am following the plan in the book, “Protein Power” to see if I can shed a few more pounds. I desperately need to make some sort of progress… for my sanity if nothing else. I have just been really discouraged. My mom started dieting at the same time as me. She weights 160-170 ish and is in a size 12. We both started out at almost the same size. It is just frustrating to me since we have been dieting for the same length of time, yet she is at her goal, and I am still 40 pounds away from mine. So, yeah, I am having a pity party, yeah I messed up big time, but I refuse to give up. I WILL reach my goal.

 

Oops.

I don’t know if any of you struggle with the same thing as me, but man-o-pete do I have a hard time sticking to an exercise routine. For some reason, I’ll do well for like, 2 weeks or so, and then I just give up!!!!!!! Put me on an eating plan and I’ll stay on it pretty much indefinitely. Exercising, on the other hand, is a very different matter. So, again, I am going to start trying to exercise again. I feel much better when I work out. I love feeling stronger and more energetic. I just don’t like the time commitment that working out involves. I just need to get into a routine. I must just determine to work out every day and actually DO IT! I have decided, if I work out 5 times every week this month, I will treat myself to a pedicure! =) I will keep you all posted on how I’m doing. =)

How about you all? You doing well? I hope so. Just stick with it, and if you fall off the wagon, hop right back on! Don’t wait for tomorrow, Monday, or whatever other excuse you can come up with. Hop RIGHT back on. =) YOU CAN DO IT!

Anyways, thats all I have for today.

Alice out. =)

I’m BACK!

Well hello there blog friends. It has been awhile. I apologize. I have been so busy these past few months, I have just not had a chance to blog. Also, with my business, I have not lost any more weight, but I have MAINTAINED! I am looking at that as a HUGE victory. It has been my pattern of behavior to diet until November-ish and then blow it completely for 2 months and gain everything back. I have done a really good job maintaining excluding the past 2 weeks. It has been very hard for me to stay on my eating plan these past few months because of my social life. I have been traveling a lot, staying with people I do not know well, and eating car trip food in the meantime. This is a deadly combination for any low-carb dieter. I am proud to say, though, that I did maintain my weight all the way until the past 2 weeks. I gained about 3 pounds over Christmas, but have already lost that weight. =)
So, I realize everyone is going to be starting their healthy eating plans right about now. “A new year, a new you!” is a good way to sum up the attitude of most Americans in January. For anyone who might stumble upon this as a “newbie” to the dieting thing, I would just encourage you to stay strong! Its often the first 2 weeks that are the hardest. Stick with it and you will feel SO accomplished. Also, don’t set unrealistic goals for yourself! Be happy and CELEBRATE each pound, even every half a pound lost. Never say the word “only” when talking about your weight loss. “I only lost 2 pounds.” That is not going to encourage you to do better, it will make you feel like a failure and keep you from succeeding! Celebrate each pound lost, and celebrate even if you didn’t lose any weight, but were self-controlled and diligent. Every day is a step in the right direction and you should view it as such. Also, if you mess up, don’t wait until the next day or until Monday to get back on the plan. You will never get anywhere if you do that! YOU CAN DO THIS! I started last January at 245lbs. I now fluctuate between 210 and 214 depending on the time of the month. I see this as a HUGE victory. Not many people notice my weight loss, I don’t care. I still wear many of the same clothes, I don’t care! If I see those things as failures, I will end up weighing 300lbs! Could I have lost more weight last year? Absolutely. But, did I lose weight and make positive changes for my health? YES. That is a victory and needs to be viewed as such.
I am going to do my best to be faithful to updating my blog. Please subscribe and follow my journey. I hope to be an encouragement to others on this journey, and receive support from friends who are walking with me on this tough road.
Blessings,
Alice.